Updated on April 29th, 2022 from Austin, Texas.
Sammy and I have been officially married since the 12th of March. Almost two months. Time flies. She’s still the best decision I ever made.
For our honeymoon, we spent two weeks in Argentina visiting my family and it was absolutely wonderful.
We were away from our house for over a month between the time spent in Florida for the wedding and the time in Argentina. Our backyard and front lawn were covered in weeds. The grass was yellow and withered. It was a dismal state.
We’ve since cleaned up the weeds and are trying to bring the grass back to life with some heavy watering (which I’m not a fan of due to the cost and waste of water. I don’t think I want much grass or an HOA in my future abode.)
I’ve been feeling overwhelmed. Work has been stressful. I’ve been unhappy for reasons I can’t eloquently explain. Just overall unhappiness and despair.
But I’m trying to find my way. I started to read 12 Rules For Life: An Antidote to Chaos by Jordan Peterson and it’s helping a bit, I think.
I’m trying to get to know myself as if I was a stranger; I’m asking myself what I want and figuring out how to get it.
I do think writing and creating are a core part of my Being. I envision this blog as a universe unto itself. A web of knowledge. A wellspring of useful advice. A comforting shoulder. A light that guides the way. I need to find the way to take this vision and turn it into a reality.
I’m ruthless and unforgiving with myself. I show myself little compassion. I need to change that.
I need to learn how to entice myself into sustainable, productive activity. I need to reward myself for the little wins and not always beat myself up. I’m a terrible boss. No wonder I don’t want to work for myself.
It’s a difficult, arduous journey. It’s an uphill climb with a boulder on my back. But I’m excited. I’ve got faith that I’ll see myself through.
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This Now page was inspired by Derek Sivers.